Words by Jess Downey
Editor's Note: As part of an ongoing series where a member of the Holl & Lane team reflects on the theme of the latest issue, this post is in response to the Holl & Lane Volume I, 2017 Collection issue themed around "The Beginning".
Beginnings have always scared me. And I don't mean in that super fun thrilling kind of way. I mean absolutely terrifying. Like seeing a clown jump out of the woods kind of terrifying. I honestly don't know if I have a really great answer as to why.
Beginnings creep up on you. Sometimes you're just moving along like everything's fine and then BOOM there's the beginning. You have to start all over. From scratch. And it almost always happens when you realize things are going well.
Beginnings just bring about too many new things. Too much that's unknown. Too much uncertainty and way too much chaos. I prefer the comfort of the known. To know my next move. I like things when they're calm and relaxed. Easy breezy. Which is weird since my favorite place to live was New York City.
And maybe it's because I spent the better part of the last couple of years having my fill of beginnings. I got married. I quit my job to start my own business. I moved to a new state and city. My husband started a new job. And we bought our first house. Don't get me wrong, all of those things are wonderful things. But they were filled with so much fear and uncertainty. But I think that’s kind of the thing I guess.
Beginnings can't be avoided. No matter how much you try. No matter how much you think you have it all planned out, they happen (like that damn scary clown jumping out of the woods). A new year. A new job. A new relationship. A new home. A new town. These are all things that happen. Sometimes more than once.
And even though beginnings bring along a whole lot of scary things, they also bring so many wonderful things. Without them life wouldn't be nearly as beautiful and magical. Without them life wouldn't be life.
So as I sit here and fear the beginning, I have to remember all that it's brought me - my dream of living in New York City, a family with a loving husband and two seriously cute dachshunds, a shop that's starting to thrive, an awesome job working with Holl & Lane, and a new town with a really yummy donut shop. And that's what’s important to focus on.
Jess is the lady behind Facebook for Holl & Lane. She is a lifestyle blogger, shop owner, crafter, and DIY-er. She lives in the Midwest with her husband and two little doxies, Brooklyn & Grendel.